lapsi.

stop the night
out of dire need.
strive for
moments mustn't pass.
i heard stolen woes
what beautiful ladies
condemned to weep impure,
must i do
with my skin swelling,
rain like sulfur
falling foretells
could i look anymore.
would i feel some more.

act like you never had love,
your stomach won't lather
what you wish would bother.
the meantime derives
only never sure,
wish
i could only sleep forever.
beer.
valiums.
ketamine.
stillnox.
else
numb.
please
ease thinking..
there's more out there,

but then not this..
not me;
you must not miss..
you must burn your eyes of dry tears,
shed your wants of toiletry
retch the bitter seemed sweet.

leave only,
and never stop..
tell me why
because i wont ask,
then take it away,
there was nothing else anyway.

only god to me
is this vile of her cum,
my brothers blade
beside my bed,
i swear i'll listen..
only when i do dream.

weakened.
by the scent i cant wash off my fist,
then slowly but surely..
the bleeding made my flesh,
the wine tasted
like
kisses i longed for.

only god to me
is my father's gun
right beside me..
bullets like bloodsemen
made for chances.
warn me my friend,
it is searing again..
to much to be rare,
to bleak to be aware.

i cant sleep.

leave only,
and never stop..
tell me why
i wont ask,
then take it away...
there was nothing else anyway.

nervous when she comes around.

are there no more pictures?
all i saw was our friends,
when it is raining now,
my night is your night.
would you call for this dance?
i can see it would be our last,
...
for god's sake
it wasn't like that.
talk to me
i haven't never ever felt so much.

i was thinking you
would never think it be music.
you killed me
your scent
derives of longing flowers to bloom.
it left me innuendos
made from proportions
a liar would tell
only what is true,
shit! i would gladly subdue.

and all i want is you
grasping beyond this burden,
no one in this room would defy
i would taste your tongue
just once more i could die.

you saw me with this beer forsaken,
i understand;
i wasn't anywhere
but i dreamt and woke up
it wasnt a dream..
yet the best goodbye
is you weren't there
at all...

and just maybe
again
i would lose myself,
ingest what would be
what my total worth is.
leave me be left alone
see you standing
never and only mine,
you have what is only your own,
i thought i had time.

i would want to take what is left.
for as long it is the cure
for no one can can save us,
we are both deaf.

i really did want to see you my love,
and where would this be without you..

rendered
and do i thank you...

last call.

this house you have
filled the void
not even time could.
welcome to this place
memories from many lives
i can chainsmoke
here
i can drink my intestines off
i love
what you missed.

on your lap
weary
i slept a thousand years.
i made love
with no gravity..
have i died and lived
all at once
that medicine is my friend
still..
like on other
i even pissed on your virgin mary,
that seeing you born
i can see you finally;
for i can never leave you
but can be drunk for you.

the many faces you have
all resemble
portraits found and lost.

this place
was like no other.
moments those i bled
not only in gravure,
not in what is scathed,
only that i can say truly
you have been so lovely
in that evening gown.

my arms around you,
you made your sweat taste
eloquently
like brandy,
like happy,
like weed,
angels and devils encore
like a mango grove

the night has grown old,
last call.