memory.

i am unsatisfied
redeeming and destructive.

i am memory
estranged in sobreity.

i am the sweat
tasted dropped from your forehead.
i am the blood cut
from scratching your eyes.

i am a million fold
and so much more
for the cost of pathetic living.
time is mine to muster
in indefinite loneliness
and forsaken failures.

money, mileage, my love..
is what you do
as it gets somewhere to beg for it.
i am the sum
of accumulated rust spun under
this vessel

the crime of life
staring at the ceiling molds
smoking a cigarette
in between memories.