angel with black wings.

muse
of all my wants and hungers

silence screams a lonely song
serenades from sun to moon and sky
her face i dream
and i will never die..

i will never die.

ligtas.

san ka pupunta?
kapag ang karanasan
ay natuklasan hindi na magutom,
sa isang kaliwa
at pangalawang kanan.

sulatin mo
para sa kanya
na akin na lamang,
kapag iyong makikita
na hindi tayo nagiwanan.

ang matitira
karangalan
at toma..
sayo 'to hanggang buto!
kasi ito
apoy at tubig
pinapangligo.

hindi nagsasabi ng paalam
kundi
nagsasabi lamang.


(to all my friends who left the philippines)

fathom.

last drink
i remember once
i got paid for the mishap,
so where would i be for you?
my lonely friend,
i could've written something
to be less abstract,
like my mind incised
anything else
would be just gas.

will i be so lost
i forgot if i was
with or without you;
two depressants later,
all i might have had was dances,
all i had was grieving fortitude.
i could churn with a cough lavished
biting my lip
or say
chew off the wine glass
which redeems me.

my lilith i prayed
i be unborn still in your womb.
i understand why i'd be eyeless,
my head down
thinking maybe i'd forget
that somewhere you be safe.
as i
never got to let you go.

and for this i fathom,
somewhere
i can buy more time
until my last drink
just maybe
i wouldnt be so comforted..
so still
i'd think of words
only so for the just