disheartening.

quite disheartening
(why does smoking weed feel like smoking winston lights?)
(why does my red horse taste like red wine merlots?)

forgive me
I Once drenched in liquids
which equate to your sweat.
My eyes are burning
and the tears taste like your skin.

you kept me waiting.
I bless myself
and long for the cold hands
that I once knew God as.

Your moan made me sure I love music.

and where my bed disappeared,
the dust from under it
are felt like cigarettes

I once drank too little
where you drank too much;
The witness you lost,
was a playback of time
I see on TV

Our eyes differ beyond
what others examine
and for each I breathe you
I love its Famine..

you dont need a gun
for the spaces you left by;
but a knife
with vigor
to make it slow
precise
and Unforgetable.

How your name lies in my heart
like no other.

(originally written as "Forgive" 10/17/05)